WHY?

why? i ask God y? why u put me through this?

i cant bear this... alone...

Church

Recently...pass few weeks.....beginning of the year.... like everybody else i made new year resolution. wow!!? part of it was to recommit myself to God, my life for Him... just had a good start and then suddenly.....

back to square one.

I am now frens with nobody at church...well there all nice ppl there js that I dont seem to fit anywhere,

ppl i get along arent really there anymore....

n worship..... aaa *sigh*

worship shound be getting an emotional high...its about God not about your emotions. its not like a session to get you all high and recharge for monday....

for those who agree to that? u need to recheck your faith.
for me it seems more and more like an excuse than reality, put urself in God shoes, what would u think? u got robots u created praising and standing there like candle sticks, wow!! how great would that make me feel...

i really feel a want to enjoy worshiping god instead of an obligation i have to do every sunday

mayb the fire inside of me had just ran out of fuel. why do i still go to church?? *stares at screen*

*5 mins later*

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*still staring at screen*


should i go back to church hopping??

i really need to feel belonged to a church....

Equal Rights!!!!

URrgggHhh.... i just enquire bout acca course, would cost me a few thousand for the first six months like that....... still affordable for me.... but...EEEeeeEEE |>_<|

I ask my father.....

me : Pa, js now i went to XXXXX business school
Father :O,....they hiu u?
me :yes...
Father: Oh i tot they dont hiu u....

me : pa, if i study there can u support a bit?
Father: i where got money??

me: T_T

me: how come ning's(sister) one u got? even borrow from Ah Long
Father: last time.........

n everything goes down hill from here...

haih~ sien....

one month can subsidise 100 or 200 mah good....

or atleast something like: if i got extra i give u......

but totally NO...bo lui! not even empty promise...

haih~

not fair T_T m i not my father's son?

Birthdays

Today i went to a birthday party. It was happy until i thought of my own birthday. Ofcourse i buy few good friends dinner in places seldom gone, nothing out of my budget, but hey, i paid for everything. N better still i told them it was actually my birthday....and some invited dint turn up for some reason......

I got one phone call from australia to wish me happy birthday......wasnt my sis(she's also at aus,i dint call her on hers either). Jiaren...thankyou for remembering my birthday, i think i must be very hard to remember my birthday cause urs is on the very same day as mine...duh.

It dint matter if i dint celebrate my birthday...i got dozens of close friends....that are no longer in contact, i js wish i can have it with those close one that r still around. one i consider good friend died....years ago. It din matter how long have we known each other or how much we have spent together in total..... How i put ppl's character worthy to be on the friend list inside my heart is......i dun really know myself....but if i get a small token, i'd understand im a fren at ur list, a small gesture, i take notice on it..even though i may not appear so.

If im nobody to everybody...i js hope i got a "gesture" from one person on earth, if ever God says u can't have a celebration(nvr party), but u can chose one person to call you, n I(God) will make her do so, I'd have someone in mind.......I'd exchange my whole life of birthdays js to spend one birthday with you...T_T I'd plan a year ahead, infact i got an idea in mind already. But get back to earth, life's nvr perfect, life's js full of grace unnoticed.

I should have sent a card u along with the present.....

I did get something tonite, i relive my passion for singing, I haven't been singing since like form2.
I think I should have an aim to improve my singing as it's very nostalgic, reminds me of my uadolescent days.

I actually wanted to post about my newly renovated room...or room renovation on process,my dual monitors, new book rack...the befores....after....and aftermath, but later guys. This is fairly long for your attention span.


reading this post.

my dream girl

i've met a girl in my dream a few(quite a few) nights ago.
small and cute.....
it was in a fun fair or a theme park.....
we met there...she with her group of frens n me with mine.....
she gave beatiful counsel....
n one of her eyes were blue...
as if God carved a blue crystal to it...
how i wish to meet u again...
girl of my dreams.....

U tidak suka, U keluar! dari Malaysia

Jenaka kabinet oi....
(Cabinet Joke)
last time they say ...lets set up kementerian toilet...LoL
now they say "U keluar dari Malaysia"
Malaysian check this out

click here
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22 things to do to a girl

1. Tell her she is beautiful or gorgeous
(not fine, or
sexy)

2 . Hold her hand at any moment . . .
even if its
just
for a second.

3 . Kiss her on the forehead/ neck.

4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up
to.

5 . When she is upset, hold her tight and
tell her
how
much she means to you.

6 . Recognize the small things . . . they
usually
mean
the most.

7 . Pick her over all the other girls you
hang out
with.

8 . Write her notes. (She'll love them )

9 . Introduce her to family and friends . . .
as your
girlfriend.

10 . Play with her hair.

11 . Pick her up, tickle her, and play-
wrestle with
her.

12 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.

13 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid
jokes, or
just
tell her jokes.

14 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.

15 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.

16 . Give her piggyback rides.

17 . Bring her flowers

18 . Treat her the same around your
friends as you
do when your alone.

19 . Look her in the eyes and smile.

20 . Let her take as many pictures of you
as she
wants.

21 . Kiss her in the rain.

22 . If your in love with her . . . tell her.

>>Got this from friendster. Any Geeky comments??