你

给不了妳以后

只好让你走

我决定不想妳

心里不在有你

妳的点点滴滴

不再让我悲伤

成全你的以后

人生我勇敢走

给你最后祝福

我的心不会再有你

天下无爱

天下无爱

牺牲为未来，失败一场空。

为成功失去自己。 

社会实际，人生长苦。

WHY?

why? i ask God y? why u put me through this?

i cant bear this... alone...

Church

Recently...pass few weeks.....beginning of the year.... like everybody else i made new year resolution. wow!!? part of it was to recommit myself to God, my life for Him... just had a good start and then suddenly.....

back to square one.

I am now frens with nobody at church...well there all nice ppl there js that I dont seem to fit anywhere,

ppl i get along arent really there anymore....

n worship..... aaa *sigh*

worship shound be getting an emotional high...its about God not about your emotions. its not like a session to get you all high and recharge for monday....

for those who agree to that? u need to recheck your faith.
for me it seems more and more like an excuse than reality, put urself in God shoes, what would u think? u got robots u created praising and standing there like candle sticks, wow!! how great would that make me feel...

i really feel a want to enjoy worshiping god instead of an obligation i have to do every sunday

mayb the fire inside of me had just ran out of fuel. why do i still go to church?? *stares at screen*

*5 mins later*

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*still staring at screen*


should i go back to church hopping??

i really need to feel belonged to a church....

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Birthdays

Today i went to a birthday party. It was happy until i thought of my own birthday. Ofcourse i buy few good friends dinner in places seldom gone, nothing out of my budget, but hey, i paid for everything. N better still i told them it was actually my birthday....and some invited dint turn up for some reason......

I got one phone call from australia to wish me happy birthday......wasnt my sis(she's also at aus,i dint call her on hers either). Jiaren...thankyou for remembering my birthday, i think i must be very hard to remember my birthday cause urs is on the very same day as mine...duh.

It dint matter if i dint celebrate my birthday...i got dozens of close friends....that are no longer in contact, i js wish i can have it with those close one that r still around. one i consider good friend died....years ago. It din matter how long have we known each other or how much we have spent together in total..... How i put ppl's character worthy to be on the friend list inside my heart is......i dun really know myself....but if i get a small token, i'd understand im a fren at ur list, a small gesture, i take notice on it..even though i may not appear so.

If im nobody to everybody...i js hope i got a "gesture" from one person on earth, if ever God says u can't have a celebration(nvr party), but u can chose one person to call you, n I(God) will make her do so, I'd have someone in mind.......I'd exchange my whole life of birthdays js to spend one birthday with you...T_T I'd plan a year ahead, infact i got an idea in mind already. But get back to earth, life's nvr perfect, life's js full of grace unnoticed.

I should have sent a card u along with the present.....

I did get something tonite, i relive my passion for singing, I haven't been singing since like form2.
I think I should have an aim to improve my singing as it's very nostalgic, reminds me of my uadolescent days.

I actually wanted to post about my newly renovated room...or room renovation on process,my dual monitors, new book rack...the befores....after....and aftermath, but later guys. This is fairly long for your attention span.


reading this post.

my dream girl

i've met a girl in my dream a few(quite a few) nights ago.
small and cute.....
it was in a fun fair or a theme park.....
we met there...she with her group of frens n me with mine.....
she gave beatiful counsel....
n one of her eyes were blue...
as if God carved a blue crystal to it...
how i wish to meet u again...
girl of my dreams.....

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